thingy burden *disclaimer* I don't know what this is, but I wrote it anyway. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ certain things waylaid, shrouded an indirect guilt, but guilt nonetheless things beyond my fingertips except futility hey, I'm human too this shame, it's misdirected so all signs point to some major fuckery proclivity periphery a penchant for inward collapse loneliness is a curious addiction bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang bang my head against the wall all night desperately wanting to know and forget and neglect and rise and fall and grab and weep and scream and be this odd dehumanization when we're supposed to be finding ourselves, we only move further away than ever and, yes, there is a point of no return a place at which you either forget and accept, or remember and regret I'll choose the latter and damn the absence of sanity this mindless, meandering quest for - what? happiness? in your head love? in your head self? in your head but not to quest would be not to live but what is living anyway? do your own goddamned thing just keep the window cracked a tick IT'S BEYOND MY CONTROL like a lonely duck in a field sweetly ignorant of the rubbish thirty yards downwind sometimes, I get this crazy naked feeling almost gestation and I compress and clench perhaps a little squeal then, the morning and it was all for nothing keeping you around wouldn't be fair to other people so, with a feather in my skull and all the disappointment in the world traveling up and down the tenuous seams of my pocket I ask you, cordially and earnestly, to fuck off. 020303 ... lurch ah yes, the thingy. we all have one. perhaps yours is bigger than mine. yet i sense it is not. bite mine nipple and face the backlash of my thrust upon your solid pantie, then we shall see who has the strongest thingy 040504 ... minnesota_chris we all have one. Except women, but they don't count. 040505 ... the duckling the duckling knows all about "thingys" wow thats a huge thingy 050728 what's it to you? who go blather from