blind_emotion peyton if you feel so much for someone, and they don't know it, does it exist? if you can give her the stars, but she isn't in the mood for stars, are you powerless? if you can say everything but the one thing that would bring you the world, are you mute? if you see everything that she is, but she doesn't know you're watching, are you blind? if you feel more than you can say, and you hold it all in, will you explode? I can't tell you what I think. I can't tell you what I want. I can't show you what I am. I can't trust you the way you want me to. I can't comfort you in the way you need to be comforted. I can't bear the thought of you being gone. I can't stand to hear your hurt. I can't stand the idea of you not wanting me in return. I can't stand the idea of you leaving me. I can't stand the idea of saying that you're the one that got away. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I wish you were here. I want to touch your hand again.. And I want you to not be fearful to offer it to me. I want to know and consume and heal and be known and consumed and healed. I want you to hear you right now. I want to hug you right now. I want to kiss you and tell you that it's you I want so much. I hope one day you believe in me.. I miss you so much it bleeds with misery.. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. 020102 ... kerrry run into the wall of your soul and break your nose on it ah, damn it all to hell... i hate feelings! 020103 ... EECP Peyton speaks what I have said to myself for years. The pain is real. I understand. I think I wrote the book. 020416 ... unhinged over and over again i answer every call my reason shut off to my blinding heart and i still cry for you and i still want you but i hate you at the same time things that were blind now visible but that doesn't change anything that doesn't change my heart 020416 ... girl_jane But sometimes I see things I shouldn't. 020815 ... eddie where are you? 020815 what's it to you? who go blather from