prestonclark aj "...when you stop talking to someone, it doesn't mean they stop existing.. i learned that the hard way, and almost lost a dear friend." me too. the best part about us talking, is not having to pretend you don't exist. well, that and having someone to make fun of ;) do remember last may, one night we talked on the phone for hours...and i cried and you cried and we talked bout how entirely screwed up we and all our friends are? and we were right. and then, you told me i'd end up being a counselor, and i wanted to scream at you. but i couldn't cause i knew you were probably right. and we promised we'd take each other to our 10 year high school reunions. you don't have to remember any of that, but here's the deal: i do. and whether it happens or not, i'll want to show up back here with you so we can see how screwed up everyone still is. prestonclark...you=confusion. things have been pretty messed up. and for a long time, i was pretty selfish. sometimes i'm afraid now that i'm heading in that direction again. but i have these memories now of sitting next to you and not speaking, or walking past you and pretending you're not there. and i can't do that again. i don't know what's happening, or where i'm going. but i know wherever it is, i'm gonna write you letters. whether you like it or not. remember, honesty is most important. honestly, i think you're grand. but, i know too that i can be stifling. if ever you need to tell me i'm too much, go for it. p.s. you're going down in bowling today. hardcore. i'm wicked tough. xo//amyjane 010321 what's it to you? who go blather from