how_i_feel_today silentbob i dont know. strange. empty. longing. bored. lethargic. i don't know. waiting. impatience wanting more 040731 ... unhinged bored (check) lonely (check) insane (check) sad (check) drifting (check) anxious (check) tired (check) insane (check) bored (check) recycle list 050321 ... mon uow tired sore thigh and my eye it's all nevermind 050321 ... blown cherry feeling fine, a little tired but my mind is calm and the world is pleasant enough for now. I have however just misplaced my identity. I'm sure it'll turn up sooner or later, it's probably just fallen down the side of the bed again. 050322 ... psycho101 I JUST WANT TO KILL MY FUCKING BITCH-ASS MOTHERFUCKING WHORE BOSS. i would like to stab her with a rusty knife. several times until her blood has covered all my face, splattered. like a trophy to remind me she is dead. 050322 ... misstree hopeful... hancock fabrics is innerviewing me today, and i'm 14 days sober, and the house is clean and has food in it. looking up, at least for the moment. 050322 ... birdmad vaguely hung-over after a weekend that included every type of bars except for the ones that compose holding cells and drunk-tanks (and it came pretty damned close to that a few times.) the house is a bigger mess than it was to start with and based on the blurry flashes of memory that survived the weekend's chemistry experiment - i'll probably need a full-panel screening the next time i go to the doctor needs to listen to the devil on his shoulder more often 050322 ... unhinged shitty 181018 ... unhinged still shitty 181019 ... arwyn Exhausted Restless 181020 what's it to you? who go blather from