until_summer Mahayana 93 days until summer 020320 ... pushpins oh my god. i feel so...empty and lost. until summer I will wear these scars as trophies and I will waltz with depression. I will wear my tears as badges until summer. and then I will be free. 020320 ... jeremid if you really mean it stay nothing should matter that much im going to be in troy till sunday sned me a letter with your decision i dont want to see your face say no college is laaaaaame 020320 ... girl_jane It's not coming fast enough... 020321 ... girl_jane I'll change my mind countless times... 020414 ... birdmad mephistopheles summer? "This is hell, nor am i out of it" what was green in winter and spring has begun to dry and shrivel waiting for the lightning strike and the careless cigarette to set it ablaze. burning inside kept me warm through the winter but now i feel like a frog in the microwave as if all the sun gods of ancient mythology retired here to this place when their sponsored religions died. like a scarecrow in a forest fire milton's lucifer surveying the city and the surrounding hell: "Farewel happy Fields Where Joy for ever dwells: Hail horrours, hail Infernal world, and thou profoundest Hell Receive thy new Possessor: One who brings A mind not to be chang'd by Place or Time. The mind is its own place, and in it self Can make a Heav'n of Hell, a Hell of Heav'n." 020415 ... mahayana i shall be daydreaming of that one beautiful-sexy-charming face you make [[oh how you move the all within me]] until_summer i shall be daydreaming & working towards seeing that [one] look you get all over again & again in person [[its that ... my inner hipbones are sore look... that nobody but you & i seem 2 understand... and mmmmm i like it that way]] until_summeruntil_summeruntil_summer 020416 what's it to you? who go blather from