no_touch__touch_me girl_jane You know those studies that say babies who are held often are healthier overall than babies who weren't held as often... I think as a baby, I was ok. Then there are the studies that talk about girls who grew up without a father, or a father figure. They say that those girls are always looking for male acceptance. They tend to lose their virginity at a younger age. They're the ones who can't go without having a boyfriend. They're the ones who prefer to be in male company...the sluts. You know what? Those studies are true. I_hate_these_days when I have nothing to do expect think about what I've done-to other people...but mostly to myself. I wish somebody could reach inside of me-past all the bullshit and past the candy-coating-down to the bitter core-the sour blood that runs through my veins...I wish somebody could love that. I've gone a month without fucking-without kissing-without cuddling-without hugging-without holding hands... What I want is for somebody to tell me I'm beautiful-for somebody to love me for who I am- But mostly I want to feel safe in a man's strong arms- By a man's strong hands, I want to be touched. save_me love_me touch_me 030928 ... Death of a Rose girl_jane 'You're beautiful' but don't fall too far into self hatred. There are those of us who haven't f**ked, or held or cuddled in over 10 years, I've already fallen. 031022 ... the big empty the awareness of that sort of timespan can sometimes be a cruel thing too, can't it? days become weeks, the weeks months and then the months years and time accumulates around you like eons of sediment over you, fossilizing you 031022 ...   and i say that because it's the same stone i'm cased in 031022 ... 0of46 girl_jane you are sooo beautiful i may be getting a quality camera soon, would you want to model? 031105 ... endless desire void 031106 ... three words no_touch__touch_me sings drink 181009 what's it to you? who go blather from