if_you_were_here_ girl_jane things would be better. I would curl up with you on the couch, and I could forget the things that bother me. I wouldn't be fighting_bad_moods_and_bad_days. I would be even more right when I say I_can't_live_on_pills. I wouldn't have to remind myself that I'm_an_actress, and I wouldn't start conversations with you_know_it's_bad_when_... But you're not here, and you're not around to even talk to...I'm not sure if that makes everything worse or not... 030428 ... speaking_without_a_tongue if you were here, i wouldn't have these silly conversations with myself I wouldn't have to pat myself on the back when i've done something well I wouldn't believe in these semi-deviant dreams that haunt me without your presence I'd be here, you'd be here, without a care we would be together, if you were here 030429 ... *silent screams I'd just stare at you trying to figure out exactly what it is I see in your eyes... 030430 ... joda I wouldn't know what to say. I'm no good at apologies, so... I'd probably just ignore you, to be honest. 030430 ... tricky i would fucking punch you right in the face!!! you have no right to accuse me of talking shit about you and then not tell me what i allegedly said so i can't even defend myself. bullshit. buuuullllshiiiittttt! and then run to your older brother about this problem and sick him on me. great. you accuse me of trying to fuck your life up. well you're the only one who can stress me out that much in such a short period of time. i hope you're proud of yourself. 030430 ... love & hate if you were here, i would never let you go again... 040424 what's it to you? who go blather from