you_know_it's_bad_when_ girl_jane even your mother tells you that you look like shit... I'm sorry I have frizzy curly hair, Mom. I'm sorry I don't like wearing gallons of make-up, Mom. I'm sorry I like to be comfortable in jeans and t-shirts, Mom. Fuck off. I have nobody to impress. When you're barely 18 and already uncomfortable with the way you look-the best thing to happen is for your mother to tell you that you look like hell... I love you too, bitch. 030428 ... from now on you think starvation could help you think sleep a slow form of death you think your thoughts too loud you think you're thinking when you're not 041109 ... whitechocolatewalrus you know it's bad when you can't breathe when you can't breathe it's bad when you can't breathe my knees hugged to my chest i can't breathe it's so cold the air is frozen the window is blurry my reflection staring back at me i can't breathe the air is squeezing me i can't handle this i can't breathe 041109 ... jane you're counting the days by packs of cigarettes that you're using as a substitute for food 050717 ... FA113N You catch your finger in a door a few minutes past midnight, freak out thinking it is broken, picturing the next few weeks being housebound because you can't wheel your chair.... ... And can't think of a single person you can call to talk you down. This morning I have a pretty impressive blood blister, and the swelling went down so it isn't broken. Is this growing_up? 130207 ... n o m you look like me 130208 ... vortex it destroys you from the inside every day. voracious_entropy. 130208 what's it to you? who go blather from