i_am_sorry elisabeth I am sorry to everyone, i have hurt, i am sorry to everyone who is hurting. life is not supposed to be this way. I am sorry for the things that people find out on here. and i am sorry for the peopel who will find things out. I am sorry for anything i said against someone. i was mad and angry and this seemed like the only exit. but i was wrong. it was the wrong decision. I have many names. 8 of them i think it is now. so i am sorry for everyhitnf that i said. i have changed and i am leaving blather. for good this time. it brings me nothing but pain. 011006 ... starved and hurt whatever i do, you treat me as if i should apologize for it, and then you get offended by my apologies so what the fuck am i supposed to do? 011007 ... sEth For everything I do that is wrong. I am sorry all the time. 011111 ... Sonya --- false_apologies 011112 ... niki that i got in a wreck with a teacher from school and now she is suing me 011112 ... TK Your know who you are. I had no right to say what I did nore do I expect forgiveness, what I did was/is wrong. *Sigh* I'm takeing a break from blather 011218 ... ClairE that blather makes people sad. that I can't keep my mouth shut. that life has to be so difficult sometimes. When I am happy, I just feel this bewildered compassion for everyone. Have_some_happiness. 011218 ... In_Bloom I panic and run, forcing your hand when I know better that you have your own fears I put you up against In the face of everything wonderful you show me, my fears grow defiant to be excused You patiently address each incident and take time see me brought around to reason when you have so little free time I think to myself selfishly I am happy for your misfortunes because I wouldn't have you otherwise and you probably wouldn't think I'm so wonderful in comparison You didn't meet me when I was on top of my opportunities, confident, capable, successful with so much more to gain There's so much I had to offer that someone else got instead 090902 what's it to you? who go blather from