getting_over_it unhinged is slow and painful i'm getting too old for this shit 080718 ... amy i'm finally getting_over_it -- i guess it was an -insult- and i'm not sure if the insulters meant it or not.... but anyway, life's too short, i guess. i suppose i have to find the faith again that it will get better. and have that faith not be the equivalent of a silly crush. it's difficult to do when you actually need the positive experiences, not the emotional roller coasters. chicken first, please.. chicken first. 080719 ... unhinged i'm more angry than i want to be or i cry a lot 080719 ... unhinged when i told my brother i was moving he said 'good, now you can tell me who he is so i can kill him' and told me i was stupid cause i didn't know his last name. and then my heart hurt, my voice caught in my throat, and it felt like i had been crying even though not a single tear fell. sometimes my brother is such an asshole. but, usually in the same breath, he does something that makes me forgive him. 080725 ... unhinged still, i'm trying. and recently it has been more painful than i thought. i feel bad for taking my unhealed self out on him. guilty even. but should i be alone with myself or will that just make me more bitter, jaded? *siiiigh* 081204 ... hsg love_stains 081204 what's it to you? who go blather from