broken_record_again megan i know i've written this many times before, here and there. but god, it still rings so true for me. i hate change. loathe it. can barely survive it. i feel like my chest is constricting right now because i am so upset. why do people have to go and make everything different? one of my best friends won't answer her phone when i call. my own brother has obsessions we never grew up with. my parents seem like different people. i feel like i've let myself down. could you just whisper in my ear one more time that it's unavoidable and that eventually, it will be ok somehow? can you make everything better? i can't sleep at night and i can't wake up in the morning. i don't have the energy to cook and i can't quit poking around on the web. i retreat. i give up 081220 ... daxle Everything changes. You're changing, even if it doesn't seem that way. Usually when you want to retreat the best thing is to do the opposite. Get out there. Go for a run around the block. Smile at strangers. You have the power to make yourself feel better. It is in your hands. 081221 ... Pmek_LuaP The broken record has become a daily part in my life as well. However; I embrassed it in the start, but now I'm finding myself stuck in the groove of routine and apathy. As long as there is drink in my home,... I will keep skipping. 090216 ... unhinged . petulant sad_lonely_pathetic when i say this to my students, i have to ask if they even know what i mean. which makes me feel old. 090216 what's it to you? who go blather from