man_from_the_past____for_the_future nah....! you see, he helps make sense out of the senselessness of it all.... but there's no time to go back. it never began, and it shall never develop. but nevertheless.........i'm wondering when he'll visit me. he's only 1 hour & 45 minutes away from me, and i haven't seen him since may of 2000. that's a long time to go without seeing someone like him. well, shall i continue? "yes." okay then. why is he so damned intriguing? i thought i'd lost hold of wanting to hold, but i guess not. when he contacts me, it's like i start all over again in the middle. make sense? no. well asjflakjdsl. fuck. i miss him. i miss how he didn't really understand me all the time. i miss how it was all so simple with him, like the way it is when you're doing something really basic, painless, and comfortable.....like eating bread. there's really nothing to it: you're just eating bread. sure, it tastes good and perhaps it even satisfies your hunger, but it's nothing past that, because it's just goddamn bread. i mean, i'm sure you could argue this point, but don't. because i know you know what i'm trying to say. bread is bread, and he is who he is. and i want a slice of bread, of him.....really fucking badly. because i think it'd be fucking wonderful right about now. no complexity. just a pure, sweet, simplistic man who appreciates what he doesn't know. i make very little sense. oh_well. 011206 ... ClairE damn those simple men. they fit so easily into the future like sliding a king of hearts into your clenched hand. 011211 ... nah....! well put, claire darling. 011211 what's it to you? who go blather from