what_sadness_is perfectly_chaotic An intangible feeling as if there were a fire which burns away at the insides as the skin trys to tear itself off and fly away in a violent explosion. A soft, shaky feeling spilling from an undefinable place within the flesh as the body is hardly able to resist going into a seizure. All the while the throat strangles itself and the knot which sits within as tears threaten to spill with every struggled breath and blink of the eyes. 110622 ... perfectly_chaotic At times it seems to lack any one cause. 110622 ... unhinged the_four_noble_truths bodhicitta my shambhala training in the past two years has allowed me to accept my sadness. what a gift; what a fucking amazing gift. there is a tender heart of sadness at the root of all things. feeling that is what it means to be human. i am not wrong or bad for feeling that. the sadness arises then it passes away such_is_life *sigh* (your posts have been poking at my heart lately p_c. i am sorry to hear of your troubles, heart and legal. someone i loved very dearly faced the same legal troubles this year and for all i know could be locked up right now. i wish we could get the hint around here that prison time doesn't help addicts, but that's a rant for another page. i am sending you relief dear. i hope it helps) 110622 ... perfectly_chaotic The relief sent by others, in all of its forms and manifestations, helps more than I would like to believe they could possibly comprehend.... Of course, who am I to make such a ridiculous assumption? 110623 what's it to you? who go blather from