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shiva if there was someone to see it. 011218
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ClairE If there WERE, dude.

And do you really think so?

I doubt it.

I wish it were the answer, though.

I would be if I hadn't promised myself that I wouldn't.
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ClairE if I didn't have this ray of goddamn hope, pinning me to the rhythms of ordinary life. don't cry into your sheets. make cookies for your mom because she forgot last night, look up phone numbers, and don't forget to go babysitting at six.

if I felt that I had something I was supposed to be crying about. Unvalidated feelings are the worst.
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Aimee over missing you, but i'm not allowed to emotionally upset myself cause then I'll land my ass in the hospital... christ, I just need a good cry. 011227
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reitoei but this is beyond tears. this strikes deep into my heart just makes me want to pick up the knife
and end it all.....
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Grievance but I forgot how. To replace their once shining glory now strands gusty air flowing over the empty praie of my yester-life 011227
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ClairE but I'm happy now. 011227
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Jenna but I can't seem to let go. I just want to cry so much but I never can anymore. I seem to have gotten too tough for my own good.

Of course, holding it in eventually leads to a shampoo_breakdown, one way or another, I guess.

I want to let go.
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