i'm_moving_on searching i never thought i'd be able to say those words, never thought i'd sleep a night without dreaming of you, go a day without you're memory creeping up on me and making me regret guess what they say is true and time does heal...maybe heal is too strong a word. time numbs, and for now that's good enough. i can deal with numb. and even though i know you don't care either way, i'm going to get stronger and i'm going to fall in love again and soon all you'll be is that guy from way back when. it feels good 020122 ... ClairE I personally think it's scarier than "I_love_you". Maybe that's why I keep getting hurt. 020122 ... hey now! but i still miss you 020122 ... ellen cherry charles at this point i feel like it's still the best for both of us. 020126 ... Polly Damn you! Damn you to hell! This is useless. I'm tired of it, I tried to please you but I guess I have failed. There is nothing more I can do. I'm sorry then. I just don't have the essential characteristics you need. Do you ever want to email me any time soon? I only wish you would, upon the moon and all the stars. I thought you were ED the psychological... well, we can forget that now. The current situation is entirely hopeless and they think I have a black_personality. I can't believe that, just because I don't fake that I'm all flowery and nice. I'm frustrated but there is a point when spill over and can do nothing more to help the situation. Goodbye, I'll love you forever. In my dreams what never was and never will be. It existed purely in the realm of ideas, but please know, I am sad about everything that will not happen. 040216 what's it to you? who go blather from