awkwardfulness psyki i was hoping that she'd smile for me. the smile never came. 000906 ... impossibility I'm sure that isn't a word. Awkwardfulness. No, it can't be. But somehow it describes The usual situation. The situation known to me Too often, much too often. Can I misquote the Bible? Is that heresy? Will I burn in hell? Oh well . . . For wherever two or three Are gathered together in my name (misquote over - you can come out now) You can but only guarantee That awkwardfulness will be Hand in hand with me. I am looking at you. I am looking at you. No, I am, really. I am looking at you. I am listening to you. I want to hear what You have to say. Don't pay any attention To what my face is saying, How my body is reacting. My mind is here with you. Even if the rest of me - Isn't. 000907 ... M.C.rich And akward feeling inside bringing imbaressment to be myself, The inconfort of not knowing where I can start to regain conscious, The abuse of not knowing who u r is to most people. Mental nonsence, Do u really no who u r, or r u living a lie, And akward feelng happening in ur life tore down ur pride? U had to change for the himuluation to get back up, And wen u get up things change and the feelings back and u cant catch up, U run away from the testimonial proven guilt on the half u tried to change who u r, And theres the paranoi that ur not someone that media wants u to be,, ur scarred, It’s the akwardness that keeps society inline, It it was all good with all, then running nude would be just fine… But the law got somin to say bout that, Sin in the beginning made insecurity be an emotional awareness, And the reaction to publicity wen thers something rong, Makes the feeling occur and it lasts a life time, pain wen the lifes long, The hurt inside when ur the ugly kid in school, Its akward and u change urself to fit in and be cool, Ur living a lie because of the word we all fear, Cus it’s a word that abstracts and a word we don’t want to hear. 041221 what's it to you? who go blather from