fuck_me_church_is_going_to_you zxcvbnm shit 020830 ... Aimee you know... this string was at first kinda witty... now it's just kinda annoying.... looks like it's just me and the go button today.... 020831 ... someone who says "shut up!" shut up! 020831 ... unhinged squeezing fragile life out of your shattered shoulder blades i once sat in pews lit candles said prayers only answered when i feel you it's like smiling backwards so hard the tears just slip by i hear you resonating in me but still i'm alone at night sometimes it's just so easy to let it sink right in the lights are out the windows are dim the bell hangs silent but i still grin for you behind my eyes there is a reflection of what i need deep in you but still i'm alone at night sometimes it would just be so easy biting right in tearing and kicking and screaming right in but my heart won't let me bleed slowly the sun makes me squint never so holy slowly life makes a dent hold me just to sit silent in prayer just to find answers that don't matter living isn't breathing i'm standing so still squeezing the life out that won't let me in 020831 ... unhinged god do i miss you your_voice in my headphones a faded memory of all the hugs passed between us that have not succeeded fuck me church is STILL going to you after all these years hoping that what we failed at could some day be fixed that both of us could some day be fixed god absent from our role call waiting hoping that some day we'll succeed nobody_lets_go_when_they_should 040929 what's it to you? who go blather from