how_did_you_draw_your_ending Death of a Rose and in doing so, cast me so lightly aside? 040831 ... danio I was told to follow the yellow brick road. At the time that seemed like the right thing to do. 040831 ... mourninglight I drew my ending in salt in sand in rust and in blood in the northern lights and the deepest ocean in the fire of dawn and the clear of moonlight midnight blue requiem 040831 ... unhinged it's funny how you think it was easy for years i didn't know how had no boudraries and ended up a rotting puddle of selfharm it's funny how you think it was easy for me to realize the extent of_walls i had built with my last run in with a cancer it's funny how you thikn it was easy to find out how sick i still was and how i was too busy with school to have any other life but i am in a selfish period in my life mostly because grad school takes a lot of fucking time and i spent four years of my life miserable and stoned which i don't want to live that way anymore distance makes me miserable treating others like shit and being a selfish bitch makes me miserable but like i have said it's the wrong time in my life sorry_sorry_sorry_sorry_sorry as callous as it is/was and sounds i have no room left no_vacancy too many heartstrings cast to far reaching destinations too many people taking and not giving and you happened to be at the end of the line when i ran out with nothing left 040901 ... suicidalchinadoll fear and sweat and tears you ran when you saw I could not hold you I cannot hold that to you. a year of destruction..and there is more than a shell once more.. and she aches for you to fill that space see me... ...if nothing else...then stop destroying yourself because of what you stopped believing in..after me. 041019 what's it to you? who go blather from