disaster_and_defeat miniver You will all die horrible and painful deaths! Haha. But, seriously. I'm not scared of unwillingness to compromise. I'm not scared of frustration or pain. I really don't see the big problem. People make new decisions all the time...and I am people too. And this is my story... 010111 ... birdmad the other side of all history 010126 ... thIs is fun! What do you mean, "the other side"? 010629 ... mendez the amazing spanish jew history is written by the conquerors and not the conquered that's what it means that's why our (american) history books always talk about "Manifest Destiny" when the truth is a lot less romantic and why some people still try to make "wetback" remarks at me when most of my family lineage on american soil predates the english colonies if germany had won WWII just imagine how much differently that regime would have spun its history books and thus influenced world culture If the persians had conquered ancient greece, how different would the world be now? that's what it means 010928 ... unhinged so i went into rehearsal monday night totally unprepared for a piece that i was playing concertmaster on and fell flat on my face which i will be quick to admit is ALL MY FAULT. i pretty much deserved the degrading and condescending remarks i got in my lesson the next day and the consequential half an hour cry that resulted. but i did not deserve him laughing at me in seminar today because the person cuing me was giving me no tempo indication whatsoever and i couldn't follow them and we had to start the piece like five million times. and i don't think i deserved for him to prove to the whole seminar that you don't need a visual cue by turning his back to the bass player and telling him to play and coming in. if you are trying to beat me down and make me hate you it sure is working. 010928 ... three words list_of_things_to_do_before_i_die disaster_and_defeat blood_oil_and_diamonds 101203 what's it to you? who go blather from