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Death of a Rose and in doing so, cast me so lightly aside? 040831
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danio I was told to follow the yellow brick road. At the time that seemed like the right thing to do. 040831
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mourninglight I drew my ending in salt
in sand
in rust and in blood
in the northern lights
and the deepest ocean

in the fire of dawn
and the clear of moonlight midnight blue

requiem 		040831
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unhinged it's funny how you think
it was easy
for years i didn't know how
had no boudraries
and ended up a rotting puddle
of selfharm
it's funny how you think
it was easy
for me to realize the extent
of_walls
i had built with my last run in
with a cancer
it's funny how you thikn
it was easy
to find out how sick i still was
and how i was too busy with school
to have any other life
but i am in a selfish period in my life
mostly because
grad school takes a lot of fucking time
and i spent four years of my life miserable and stoned
which i don't want to live that way anymore
distance makes me miserable
treating others like shit and being a selfish bitch makes me miserable
but like i have said
it's the wrong time in my life
sorry_sorry_sorry_sorry_sorry
as callous as it is/was and sounds
i have no room left
no_vacancy
too many heartstrings cast to far reaching destinations
too many people taking and not giving
and you happened to be at the end of the line
when i ran out with nothing left 		040901
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suicidalchinadoll fear and sweat and tears
you ran when you saw I could not hold you
I cannot hold that to you.

a year of destruction..and there is more than a shell once more..
and she aches
for you
to fill that space

see me...
...if nothing else...then stop destroying yourself because of what you stopped believing in..after me. 		041019
what's it to you?
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