what_i_want_you_to_know sedrftzsxdc i have two things i want you to know, even after all this time. and then i have some random rambling saved for the end. the first one seems obvious to me, but thats just me im sorry. i know that i said 'im sorry' too many times all that time ago, but if i could, id say it once more, with a few more years worth of wisdom behind it. i had alot of growing up to do (and still probably do). i was an idiot, and a jerk. and im sorry. the second one might suprise you thank you. i want to thank you, for giving me a chance, when anyone else would have scoffed. for beliving in me for all that time, when no one else did. it ment alot to me then, and il never forget that. i will always be happy that for some damned reason our paths crossed for one brief, blinding-ly shiny/flash-in-pan moment. you should know that i try to remember the good times, and forget the bad ones. well, that is, try to forget the bad times after trying to learn what ever i can from them i sometimes wish we could be friends, but i understand if we cant. you influenced me more than you can know, and i like to think i am a better person for it. if i sound like an idiot or a fool for saying all this... well so be it, i can live with that. if i thought id could tell you any other way, i would. so yeah, i had to get that out, or it would have bugged me for who knows how long. i know that this may be selfish, but it is my hope this causes you no pain, anger, or unhappiness. so there is no doubt, i ask for nothing from you, and expect nothing in return. i hope this finds you well. best wishes my friend s 110621 what's it to you? who go blather from