so_scared velvetdesire i'm so sick of existing in this. all i do is cry and mope and feel sorry for myself. i try to stop, i try to change, but i can't. i'm too exhausted to do anything anymore. i just want to stop. stop everything. i have so much work to do and i just can't do it. i'm so scared right now. i'm terrified of the nothingness and the emptiness and the loneliness. i'm scared of the blood. i don't want to do this again. i hate the fucking cycle. slowly get a little bit better, then i always just fall back into myself. i can't do anything but sit here and cry...and i'm so scared...so scared... and so alone... 020621 ... god if worse comes to worst get a $50 greyhound ticket and start a new life. 020621 ... unhinged that i'll never had what i had with you again (which scares me again to think i had to put up with that much bad to get that much good) 040629 ... SpecialK i'm so scared that one day i'll wake up and you'll be gone... i'm terrified that you'll just get up and leave me one day, without saying goodbye 040629 ... im scared and alone i'm scared that one day, when i'm feeling really down, i'll turn to you for comfort and you won't be there. i'm scared that what happened changed things between us. You are my best friend and a little thing like this shouldn't change that. i'm scared of spriders, i'm scared of snakes. i'm scared of love, i'm scared of the hate. i'm scared that you don't love me, or that you never will. i'm scared of losing your love, your love that is such a thrill. i'm scared that you'll forget, i'm scared that i will forget. ~ i don't want to be scared anymore ~ 040825 ... im scared and alone i'm scared that one day, when i'm feeling really down, i'll turn to you for comfort and you won't be there. i'm scared that what happened changed things between us. You are my best friend and a little thing like this shouldn't change that. i'm scared of spriders, i'm scared of snakes. i'm scared of love, i'm scared of the hate. i'm scared that you don't love me, or that you never will. i'm scared of losing your love, your love that is such a thrill. i'm scared that you'll forget, i'm scared that i will forget. ~ i don't want to be scared anymore ~ 040825 ... . i'm scares_of_chaka 040825 ... scared of typos scared_of_chaka 040825 what's it to you? who go blather from