security_blanket deb this face wilts in a dejected whimper as i take a sip of a drink you suggested~ my arms shiver slightly giving way to goosebumps and without thinking, i scoot back, expecting the warmth of you to be there; i expected to hear a sympathetic, "awww," and have those arms wrap around me, trying to keep me warm- why is it that now, when i need you every time i take a shaky breath you're suddenly so far away? i need to know if i wake up suddenly, i can just scoot closer and be safe- the suspense is killing me! i dreamt we were married last night- i hoped, somehow, when i woke, we still would be- until then, i'll settle for chocolate ice cream and bubble baths out of necessity and hope that those two years of eternity (now chopped to a mere 10 months) pass more quickly than this unusually regular heartbeat 001022 ... silentbob My parents house 001023 ... startfires the spiderweb in the glass in my windsheild my big brown dog my personality 001024 ... ass facely vast empty spaces bigger than the sky. 001024 ... Somebody that I used to know You asked if this was why I stay with you. You said it in a mean way. I changed the subject. What is so wrong about being my security blanket? Why can't you be that for me? Can I be that for you? 081005 ... Lucy i don't NEED you. 081006 ... hsg stiutk: because for the good of those who you love, and that includes yourself, you simply must be your own security blanket and then you are available (through the strength of self_knowledge) to be there for others. 081007 what's it to you? who go blather from