i_freefall_me Dafremen R. Dafremen I took a ride inside to hide perhaps unwind inside My mind instead I find a precipice and jumping see in front of Me the darkest deepest widest hole I plunge on through and soon the view expands to open sky, antifreeze green all around and in between as I take in the scene or the scene takes in Me who KNOWS which it should be I don't ask, so in awe of the city I saw from my vantage point high in that hole in the sky I fly out as if being reborn Falling floating dropping dreaming beautiful, beauteous wonderful place seems almost like coming home where myriad nightmares feed alone on aspirations thoughts and dreams where hopelessness bursts at the seams now tears stream down My soul NOOOOOOOO! I flail my arms to stop my fall but pick up speed instead My limbs float lifeless, dead as I freefall inside My head Spires of fears now jutting out so sharp and clear while drawing near I fear, I fear this place TAKE Me from this place! SAVE Me from this place! but NO, the journey must go on Still on that ride inside My mind I take a breath My screams subside but echo off the loneliness that forms the valley down below a place I've grown to know and love that shelters Me that harbors Me from fear of plunging on How many times did I play in that place? in its empty embrace? at a Self defined pace seems that loneliness was My best friend guess We all die alone at the end they'll be lonely, I'm with an old friend guess the last laugh is Mine in the end I clear My head of bitter thoughts and stare in dread at fast approaching ground instead all the other things shown to Me all so well known to Me Nightmares and Loneliness Hopelessness, Dread all so familiar all here in My head but this ground seems a stranger as if unknown danger lies waiting for Me at the end Unfamiliar but, wait "No not THAT!" it's too late for the end of the journey has come though the fall through My mind wasn't long I slam into reality Done. 030623 what's it to you? who go blather from