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I've been on the verge for so long that I hardly needed anything to explode. Reeling. Reeling! Making myself stop while the sedatives kick in. Waiting for the sedatives to kick in so I can go to the pharmacist for more. I'm not clear on anything anymore. I don't know what I think and I don't want to know. P.S. Don't answer the phone when you're fighting off a panic attack. It scares people. It doesn't matter what I think about anything. I'm not going to be right. Its just my opinion. My perception of the world makes me unhappy. I don't like it. I don't want it. I can avoid thinking about things but I'm still unhappy. It's all too clear now that any goals I meet will still not make me any happier than I was before. My friends make me so unhappy. Having no friends would make me unhappy. My job is so hard. I go insane when I don't have work to do. I don't want to live and I can't die. There's all these choices but they all get me nowhere, so essentially I have no choices at all.
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give the screws some more tightening.
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yeah i found a few extra pills
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snuff
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it will be crushed like a bloody tomato but i forgot how fond of blood you ole' boys are are you going to take me on a fishing trip and lose me in australia with someone else's face on my passport? i don't really have any excitingly delightful choices to make, do i? NO! so don't involveme in your stupid shit i've got to walk the dog
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what's it to you?
who
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