coffee_high girl_jane It's been so long since I've drank coffee or consumed caffiene in large amounts. I drank an entire pot tonight to stay awake to write a paper. I'm so shakey and wired and jittery. This is nuts... 030928 ... girl_jane I'm light headed as fuck. 030928 ... girl_jane My stomach hurts. 030928 ... misstree is a consumer of liquides that lead to in it helps feed this rage, this twitch, this empty anticipation and all the voices become so fast that they kind of blur, a silence in its own way, as long as i can keep shifting my focus and i want to move, but i feel discon nected, and i lose track and i clench my fists and my shoulders won't quite unclench, because they're trying to slink under the one big thought, the one that echos, that says, yeah, well, what did you expect, you know that you've got to serve your time. just because you've accepted it doesn't mean you're free. but coffee keeps me distracted, keeps me from dwelling, keeps me manic in my slinking, always finding pretty_shiny_things that i can pretend make it all better. 030928 ... caffeinated bird tomorrow in the office, where i am like Jimmy from Pulp_Fiction when it comes to the coffee i use mixture of two specific, strong espresso blends and one of a selection of milder, flavoured blends to balance it out. So far the caramel and the chocolate have worked the best of the flavored ones i've mixed with the espresso blend 030928 ... blah-ze mmm... coffee i love coffee coffee is a god i once did a coffee binge. i drank nothing but coffee for 74 hours until i dropped flat on my face. i think i went through about 900 grams of coffee, plus double that in sugar. somewhere in the middle of that i was using toothpaste as warpaint and running laps of my backyard at 2am... then my parents came home. 030929 what's it to you? who go blather from