things_we_don't_talk_about pSyche ... we both glanced away. Almost as if ashamed. I hear it in your voice. Or maybe, it's just me, wanting to hear it. silence. 070210 ... Ouroboros it all melts away when we speak, you and i we shared it in the air, connection- intense and real, our eyes locking. but then we hugged and you spoke and i spoke, and it all disappeared 070210 ... milklesscereal kiss_dissolved_note 070210 ... Lady Lightness We had dinner last night and it was every bit as horrid as I had predicted- my exstepmother P and I- my father's second wife- crazy, she's crazy, the xanax and the drinking don't help i'm sure. Towards the end of the night she springs it on me- can I get her Heidi's sister's phone number. No way I tell her, that is not something I feel comfortable doing, and she springs and ignites. Why did she do it she wails and I reply I don't know, and she snaps at me, YOU lived with her, YOU knew her YOU were close with her and YOU dont know!?! And I shut down, fast, doors slamming shut, monsyllabic replies, ending the discussion, protecting my heart. Heidi took her life for whatever reason- no one can or will know what her final moments were and it most certainly is none of P's business. OCD. She told me she think's it's all her fault that Heidi did it. Evil crazy sorry sad woman stay away from me. 070412 ... misstree someday, my mother will die. hush, if we don't think of it or talk of it or allow it it will never be true. 070412 ... . how come ? how come ? 070412 ... unhinged things_i_never_told_you 070412 ... laced how you're afraid to tell your family about me 070901 ... laced anything, anymore 070910 what's it to you? who go blather from