something_that_i'm_not :-) you 030425 ... major tom good or particularly worthwhile 030425 ... unhinged i don't know what you want me to be but i don't want to be something_that_i'm_not i can't live in silence i get horny too my kisses will be tinged with cigarette smoke and i guess the whole age differene thing does matter sometimes like on a friday night when i have a publication release to go to and i want to go out and party but you want to stay home in bed it's funny it's seems more to me like you just want my warm body my hand no i don't have any duct tape and if i did i would tie you to a lightpost downtown with it i refuse to be something_that_i'm_not and it seems like all my 'things' aren't your 'things' every other day i want to pummel you i think what you are looking for is something_that_i'm_not so maybe you should start looking somewhere else 030426 ... . not. 030521 ... onlyme the one for you. the perfect girl of your dreams. but i wish i was because then you'd like me. 030521 ... lo i became something that i'm not out of fear. i've become a neutered version of myself. i'm only me inside my head and on paper. i'm censored...there were army guys milling about...with guns. You start a discussion with me on the war and on palistine and isreal. Why?(...tips, racist,anti-semetism,fundumentalism,terrorism, anti-american,ashcroft, lockdown,love it or leave it,...) is the only thing running through my mind. i won't take off my sweatshirt cuz underneath is a tee blazing Anti-flag (and they wouldn't understand)...and i'm in the middle of the south and there are army guys milling about and they're checking everyone's luggage and there is all sorts of vauge rules on how to spot a terrorist and terrible stories of vicious nationalists. actually maybe it's more about something that i am...a coward and ashamed.(and probably a little full of myself besides) 030522 what's it to you? who go blather from