if_dreams_came_true giff why did I have to wake up? i wanted to stay in this place forever. i saw you in front of me watching TV. i felt such distance. as there always has been. what i felt was not meant to be. i had to see you so many days and not be able to touch you. but this time you walked toward the door and turned around and came and sat next me. I could feel your body coming slowly towards me. then you kissed me. i couldn't believe it was happening. i had waited so long for this moment. but you didn't look the same. you were like a freckly faced kid, not the sensual creature i yearned for. but i wanted you just the same. i felt you laying on top of me and your cock was hard. i was afraid to lose the spontoneity, but you were so understanding. i didn't want you to go limp, but we had to find a condom. the act was not entirely consumated. there was no rhyme or reason. i was in a different time and space. i had no knowlege of why we didn't finish this intimate moment. except that i knew it wasn't real. my heart sunk to the bottom of feet because i knew i could never have you. i was not yet awake. it was a dream within a dream. my family was in another room. i wanted to find my sister and tell her. it hurt within every cell of my body, because i still want you so bad... 050115 what's it to you? who go blather from