absent deb i wake each morning dreading the feel of being alone the cat whines for food and i check when i need to be at work and the day flows monotonously by as i watch for you to appear, somehow, just around the bend- my heart pauses anxiously (yes, mine) though i know you won't be there, i come home each night, fingers crossed and somehow i fall asleep, aching emptily without you here... eight and a half months and we'll be married. just eight and a half. but how long is that in this droning eternity? sigh 001123 ... girl_jane I wonder if they'll notice I'm gone... 020215 ... sylphide I wonder if you heard my absent heart. Beating, breathing from my lips as i bowed to kiss you goodnight, and vowed my heart would not love another. 030423 ... trippingdaisy i always wondered if they'd notice if i was gone too. then i found out they didn't. it's a lonely existence when you realize that everyone you know has someone more important to them than you. 030424 ... Dragonflye After you left I wanted to take off my clothes and crawl between your sheets, but I controlled myself. I did sleep with your pillow. Each time I found one of your hairs on my bed, in the shower, I tossed it aside with studied indifference, resisting the urge to horde them in a little box, a piece of you to be mine forever— forcing myself to start letting you go. 060813 what's it to you? who go blather from