too_many_questions deb so many thoughts don't know where to begin things here are so different than i thought they might be at this point... married, 1 kid, another on the way some days i wonder what might have happened if i had done things another way if i had said something when i had the chance if i would be here right now if i hadn't done this or that... all the questions burning in the back of my mind as i sit here depressing myself with music but really, even IF things would be different had i taken a different turn back then... would i want to change all this? would i want to give up this life? that beautiful blonde child asleep... the little one kicking away in his custom-made coccoon.... this glittering thing upon my finger and the man it links me to forever? no... no, i don't think i would change a thing. i couldn't imagine my life without him.. without that little girl... without the future that i know is ahead its just been a long day i guess sunlight peering through miniblinds giving me a headache all the ifs all the maybes but none of them ARE. none of them were MEANT to be, apparently and i'm sure i'm better off not ever having the opportunity to know and still... it just makes you wonder... 040824 ... somepeoplesmile I DONT WANT THINK ABOUT THEM ANYMORE. 040825 ... my name it means nothing Is this what 18 is supposed to be like? 090602 what's it to you? who go blather from