self_fulfilling_prophecy
sirflaccid -Start hanging out with someone.
-Really begin to enjoy the company.
-Loosen up a little bit and let the guard down.
-Never hear from them again.
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hsg do_you_wear_a_mask? it's_a_waste_of_time. 081001
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Syrope
Self hatred grows in me like cancer,
I can't locate its whereabouts but it's feasting on its host.
I expected him to have the answers.
I thought I taught him how to love me;
Now he fears me like a ghost.

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You're the only guaranteed loyalty;
In this town,
Full of violent mothers,
Cheating fathers,
Leaving lovers.
I swear to you, I'll never love again.

This hunger grows inside me like a tumor,
The dizziness just compliments
This failure of a girl.
I'm settled now,
This show of mine consumes me,
But every pound I shed
Speaks volumes of my lack of self control.

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You're the only one that dare speak the truth about me;
In this town, with
Well intentioned mothers,
Starving daughters,
Worried lovers.
I swear to you, I'll never eat again.

Self-fulfilling prophecy,
You never fail to comfort me;
In this town, filled with
Violent mothers,
Cheating fathers,
Leaving lovers.
Angry brothers,
Starving daughters,
Starving daughters,
Worried lovers.
I swear to you, I'll never trust again.

~maria mena: self-fulfilling prophecy

in a more wounded time, i would have seen so much of myself in it...i just guess i can't stop the optimism. i still feel the demons, there on the edges, but until they triumph, i'll enjoy being happy. cautiously.
081202
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