i_like_to_pretend
.
that
all
these
sentimental
and
loving
notions
that
are
said
on
blather
are
you
saying
them
to
me
.
Sometimes
I
search
through
archives
of
blathes
that
one
has
blathered
under
just
to
play
detective.
Do
the
entries
seem
like
you
?
Are
they
words
you
would
say
?
Then
I
check
against
gender
and
whether
or
not
you
say
it
is
a
him
or
her
that
you
love
.
It
ends
up
always
not
even
remotely
being
a
chance
of
you
being
the
composer.
But
still
I
dream
...
that
you
care
enough
about
me
to
track
my
words
down
on
blather
and
make
some
sort
of
secret
contact
with
me
.
Still
I
dream
...
090130
...
three words
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april_taylor
i_like_to_pretend
091003
...
Ichiro
I
like
to
pretend
sometimes
that
she
knows
I
think
of
her
.
I
like
to
pretend
that
nothing
needs
to
be
said
,
but
is
just
known
.
I
like
to
pretend
about
a
life
I
dont
yet
have
that
includes
her
.
Such
fantasies
rub
salt
in
the
open
wounds
of
loneliness
.
How
do
I
deaden
the
pain
so
that
I
may
survive
the
time
until
she
arrives?
I
do
not
.
It
is
the
price
of
love
,
and
the
proof
that
I
do
.
She
will
see
with
her
own
eyes
one
day
...
I
am
not
the
same
man
that
I
started
as
.
091104
...
shoccolo
the
same
thing
,
no
matter
when
or
why
I
come
back
.
the
catch
22
of
loving
you
is
that
I'm
sad
your
words
aren't
here
,
where
I'm
looking
.
but
at
the
same
time
,
glad
you
aren't
here
to
read
mine
.
dumb
fear
...
100206
...
nandita
that
it
doesn't
matter
anymore
.
And
soon
it
really
won't
.
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what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
