blather_how_i_have_missed_you Kristopher Let me count the ways. . . One: I have missed Blather. What? You wanted more? 030715 ... x i come to blather when i feel like shit i come to blather when i feel like giving up i come to blather when i feel like digging myself a grave i come to blather when i feel like drinking myself unconscious i come to blather when i feel like dying hi, blather 030715 ... ferret hi x! 030716 ... Deomis Blather was always a kind of therapy session for me. I'd come in, flop on the couch, and spill everything I wanted to say. I think that the therapy sessions are over. I think I am falling_out_of_love_with_blather I get on the computer, and my fingers automatically type the URL for me. I go to the recent screen, and find that I can't type anything. I look, and I look, and I look and look, but nothing is found that lights the flame in my mind. No words set my fingers running, pulling the thoughts from my brain. I sit there in front of a blue screen, wishing I had words. I find it dreadfully amusing, that the time when I could use blather most, I find myself unable to use it. I find myself collapsing a liitle more every day. I don't read anymore, I can't draw anymore, I can't make rhymes anymore. Everything is crumbling. Where is my muse when I need it? I_have_words... They've just been locked up, and whatever is locking them up is eating away at me. I can't take this. I don't want to leave my padded room, my room with blue lights and walls. This isn't goodbye.... is it? 050208 ... skinny i don't know anything about you 050208 ... a thimble in time Deomis relax, creativity comes in spurts. In the interim, read, chew gum, watch a movie When the poetry comes, you won't be able to stop it 050208 ... falling_alone deomis you_are_not_alone 050209 ... c a_true_blatherskite_never_leaves_forever 050209 ... suicidalchinadoll I know the feeling 050209 ... TK How simaler (although not the same) Deomis and I feel *Sighs and waves to all the other blather ppl* 050210 what's it to you? who go blather from