papa kingsuperspecial I just got off the phone with my dad. I have not talked to him for a couple of weeks, and he left me a message or two implying that he wondered why I had not been in touch. I avoided calling for another few days, and felt a sense of dread about the process. This struck me as odd, because I have a great relationship with my dad now, and like to keep in touch. Upon further though, tI think my subconsious feeling was that I was in trouble, and I resented him for having control over me. It's amazing how deeply grown ups can imprint their actions into childhood brains. When a parent excercises control without explanation or input, be it through physical force or just the implied power of the parental role, it is bound to affect a child. That seems like quite a complex dynamic, I wonder about it from time to time. oh,well - I wonder what is on TV. (a) 010702 ... bethant he's going senile he goes around and turns on all the lights then bitches turns them all off, the light bill is too high you know, wasting money the towel is in front of the motion light again hey beth annie where'd my bell go annie i need my bell get away from me i need my bell are you going to feed the dogs tonight all of them they're yappin again oy vey annie where's my bell gone to you'll be a good girl and look for it wont you annie goodnight shut off all the lights saves for the electric bill 020814 ... bethany he's going senile he goes around and turns on all the lights then bitches turns them all off, the light bill is too high you know, wasting money the towel is in front of the motion light again hey beth annie where'd my bell go annie i need my bell get away from me i need my bell are you going to feed the dogs tonight all of them they're yappin again oy vey annie where's my bell gone to you'll be a good girl and look for it wont you annie goodnight shut off all the lights saves for the electric bill 020814 ... bethanyt i'm going senile 020814 ... Aimee can you hear me? papa, can you see me? 020815 what's it to you? who go blather from