wrong_with_happy notme why can't you just be happy what's wrong with happy why can't you just be happy and be happy with that ? you know you'd be happy 031107 ... ferret i feel content which is not cuttin' it for me right now. I need someone. but blah, you know how it is blather. i've told you my story before, the long nights of boredom and such. Argh, i can't wait to go to the high school. blah. cool-o people. grr. oh well. have a nice night blather 031107 ... pipedream happy is fine, but the problem with happy is that after a while it becomes empty, and when your boundaries of happy shapeshift you want to take happy and throw it out of the window, because smiling is just too much of an effort. forget looking for butterflies and painting your toenails sparkly pink. it all turns into bullshit. then you mold yourself around your new happy and carry on with *that*, and it all swirls around inside you until you wake up -like today- and say 'screw everyone today', defenstrate your happy and usher the cynic back in where it won't say i-told-you-so, but it *will* smirk. la la la lets all be happy shiny and sparkly *bang* 031107 ... u24 much better to be content, as you say, pipedream, happiness only fades into nothing. 031108 ... pipedream so does contentment, when you start wanting something else. i think contentment and happiness go hand-in-hand to a great extent. 031109 ... misstree contentment is sleeping. joy is playing. happy is inbetween stage, movement possible but not assumed. make it to your own dimensions. 031110 ... . . 040127 ... from now on what's wrong with me why do i have to use the word me so much why do i have to use the word i what is wrong with this scene 041103 ... .nom what is happy? am i not happy? 050125 what's it to you? who go blather from