feeling_better cole I think I'm feeling better now. I have to say, I haven't written much in years until recently. Reading blather, I'm learning it's not as pretentious as it seemed previously... I think I might actually be okay, if I can be honest 021114 ... cole Things will be okay. I don't have the slightest idea how but they will. 021118 ... newme sometimes 040720 ... Danio Who are you? Reveal yourself NOW! 040723 ... nom now 051125 ... nom than a cupla hours ago 051220 ... misstree throw yourself into the swing and take it as high up as you can, girl, momentum like this doesn't last forever. still things crashing around me. but it's a dull roar. it started with the hubby wanting me to sew something for him. i forgot how much it means to me to Do something. next step, i feel it to my bones, is getting arm weights. 8 lb, i think. feeling blood in my veins again will be so very nice, reconnecting with the meat. and i'm honestly having a blast designing this hoodscarfmantlething for him, and once i have it up and running, can likely make a few more and turn a bit o' profit. turn it around into stock fabric for more stuff, wow. but even just the right now, making this fabulous thing, rassling with it and learning every moment and shifting my ideas to cope with what the fabric has actually decided to do. it's given me wings. brought me outside the pit. i'm *excited* about something. and maybe this is why i lost my id, maybe that's descarte before derhorscht, but the thing that matters is that i am here now and there is something good with me. yays. 051220 ... megan hemingway soothes the heart neruda soothes the soul 051221 ... nom it was just one of those freaky things 060423 ... () ( i am glad. ) 060424 ... *Amy* yes, I kinda think so..after crying for 24 hours and after talking to some friends and my dear psico... 060425 what's it to you? who go blather from