dream's_are_made_of_reality perfectly_chaotic Been having crazy dreams lately. A couple of nights ago I dreamt I had been smoking herb on a daily basis and while within the dream I began to panic because, in reality, I knew I would have to see my case worker for my bail supervision the next day. The panic momentarily continued into my worldly reality. There was a moment in the morning where I was actually unsure if I had been smoking pot lately or not, but then realized that I had only been smoking in a dream. Oddly enough, I was drug-tested the morning after the dream. Last night I dreamt my sponsor had been drinking and I ran into him right before a meeting. Then we went into the meeting where he proceeded to begin to chair the meeting and introducer speakers. In my mind I was sort of freaking out for a bit about it until I woke up. A few days prior he was telling me he was not so confident about whether he was ready to be my sponsor or not because he was struggling with some of the same things I had been. Yesterday I realized that, much like my buddhist path, there is probably not an end to this road of addiction_and_recovery which I now walk down. Many of the 12-steps will likely need to be worked on until I die. I had heard that before, but it had never really sunk in until now. 110728 ... Doar hmmmm.....can I speak my mind about this? . 110728 ... perfectly_chaotic Feel free. 110728 what's it to you? who go blather from