disposition
acadia national park i can't take my own side because doing so would not release me. i'm the disposable woman. losing yourself in something tempts the male psyche to beg that it must also be nothing. and i thought i was supposed to be doing chemistry. maddening, in't?

but, i don't believe in all those chemical things, either. they are not basic enough, or nihilistic enough. i don't want to teach them to children. i can forgive myself for this, but i can't come up with recommendations. can't live down all the Gone Girl garbage. there is no hope within normal parameters - and that's why I literally believe that in his previous life, Matt Damon was one of my local firefighters. in the next? a daimon astrologer -- why not, really.

the disposable woman, just dispose dispose dispose me.
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acadia national park another little note to say that i don't just post here and run.

but it would be difficult to parse whether posting is brazen and foolhardy or if not posting is cowardly or foolhardy.

look for me as mercury goes direct. i really can't make it a habit -- changed the color to white but the blue still seeps into my soul from wherever it is this produces itself. just can't do these saturated colors - nobody to blame, in all probability.
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unhinged i don't want to ask him
why yet again
i was so disposable
(me too me too)
because all the other times
i received an answer
it didn't actually dull the pain


chances are
he moved on with life
like a healthy person
and i always care too much
because of
my high sensitivity

shrugs


some things are
better off
left_unsaid
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what's it to you?
who go
blather
from