awkward_reflections bloodstreams What do you write about when you can't have a clear thought or when your struggling with your own identity. When I woke up a couple hours ago I looked in the mirror and my reflection was almost different. I guess my drug binges are working but I'm pretty sure that was always the plan, to change my reflection. It's only been 2 hours since I woke up but my reflection is constantly changing. Now that I see it again, the deep sinking eyes have become empty and my skin has developed some kind of greasy, somewhat rubbery looking overtone. I'm starting to think too much and it might be causing lapses between sentences. It's when my thoughts stray that I feel like this, which I can't explain for this same reason. I remember a recovering alcoholic that didn't look comfortable in his own skin. He exchanged depression for awkwardness. It's like recovery is only optimistic depression and he had been sober for years. On a more positive note, I chose beer over meth after cowering over a line for about an hour. This was not about drugs....well, it wasn't supposed to be. 040715 ... mauvel sometimes you dont use words. 050922 ... elise My 14 sentences 100829 what's it to you? who go blather from