introverted_extrovert realistic optimist after many minutes of zen soaking in bubbly bliss a couple entered the hottub wanting privacy to kiss i took a few more moments to come back into my head then politely stepped out, on into the night i headed. wrapped nicely in my blanket of sordid thoughts and musings about engaging with the world with this physical body i'm using. and as i peered from folds in my blanket of introversion, i noticed a cute young thing such a nice visual diversion! as she neared the pool gate, i caught her eye and offered a smile she smiled right back, and left the gate open for me with style. "no thanks," i said, "i just got out of the hottub, the pool would be too cold!" As i strode away, she related: "it's going to feel good!" Immediately i chided myself for not jumping on such a good chance - i could have gotten to know this girl i could have learned a new dance. i'm always missing out on such open opportunities to meet girls i'm too wrapped up in my head to be open when the chance unfurls. its not just introversion, because i love to meet people, i'm not shy! except when meeting attractive girls they change me into a different guy. i want to change this about myself but i don't know where to start. i need to be sincere and genuine even more so with matters of the heart. 030924 ... . see: missed_my_cue and never pass up an opportunity to poke at people. you never know who's going to ask you to lick their lollipop. 030924 what's it to you? who go blather from