i_hate_being_alone anne-girl I just figured out why I hate the holidays... it's because whenever I'm not-around-people for any significant length of time I end up staying in front of my computer twelve-odd hours a day and vaguely hoping someone will come on msn to talk, or something but I get really down and depressed and start inventing worlds, convince myself that i'm an utter loser that doesn't deserve to live... I just don't do well alone, even if i'm in a room without anyone I know in it, as long as there are people i'll be happier maybe i should change that, because i think i'll be alone for a while ((but maybe i'll start counting the days until school starts, still three weeks)) yeah, i really think that's the problem i didn't know what it was before alone 041228 ... anne-girl i just felt like telling the world no reason 041228 ... loner being alone don't suck that bad. better than being wich a bunch of people that piss you off and then later you want to kill them and eat them. maybe you just need a hobbie or something to do girl. 041228 ... nevermore i hate it, but i'm beginning to realize it was all i was ever good for. "From childhood's hour i have not been as others were --- I have not seen As others saw —-- I could not bring My passions from a common spring..." (E.A.P.) 041228 ... sirflaccid it is hard to refill the inside 041229 what's it to you? who go blather from