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splinken i love to smoke.

it's mostly visual. i like how my index finger looks with its knuckle angled against the place where the paper and the filter meet. i like how my cheeks cave in a little when i inhale. i like the way my mouth looks with smoke either seeping or streaming out.

it's a huge improvement on when i was fifteen: 4 in the morning, stolen cigarette, hunched over, coughing on the front porch.

i've improved immensely.
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splinken my grandfather went to the hospital this weekend. he has emphysema. 001030
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tourist Used to be I'd see smoking as an adult thing, Now that I'm older I recognize that it's kid stuff. 001031
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akenbosche who gives half a damn if it doesn't change you anyway. if it only makes you self-conscious what's the point?

cigarettes are cheap for a reason
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celestias shadow mmmmm, death... 031022
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ironic? new messages on fag packets here in UK:

1. Smokers die younger.

2. Smoking clogs the arteries and causes heart attacks and strokes.

3. Smoking causes fatal lung cancer.

4. Smoking when pregnant harms your baby.

5. Protect children: don't make them breathe your smoke.

6. Your doctor or your pharmacist can help you stop smoking.

7. Smoking is highly addictive, don't start.

8. Stopping smoking reduces the risk of fatal heart and lung diseases.

9. Smoking can cause a slow and painful death.

10. Get help to stop smoking: (telephone/postal address/internet address/consult your

doctor/pharmacist).

11. Smoking may reduce the blood flow and causes impotence.

12. Smoking causes ageing of the skin.

13. Smoking can damage the sperm and decreases fertility.

14. Smoke contains benzene, nitrosamines, formaldehyde and hydrogen cyanide.

15. UK DUTY PAID
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the marker they cause cancer.

they will make me die.

why don't I stop?
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xyz the dye used to make candy look red.

a colorless candy is much less appealing than a carcinogenic one, apparently.
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