zoloft_anemia unhinged i'm drowning again maybe i should put that book down and never pick it back up adagios of broken loneliness remind me how hope fades i want to go home to you but our shelter has collapsed drifting away drowning in the sea of tears you left for me her headstone flashing before my eyes random his bare calves framed in the rainy headlights i am reminded that i am always running any happiness a bare and temporary release i am gone but i haven't left searching for any eyes that understand like his depths of wordless conversations running out the quiet torture of starry skies framed by familiar buildings the places i used to sink to the bottom frozen all this inexplicable misery a constant in this strange landscape he said i would never leave because there is something comforting in surroundings that reflect like polished glass translucent transparent i could wander around weeping for awhile i forgot how to cry but it has all come back to me in this insufferable flood of longing for my miserable home with my miserable friends and my miserable love that made me feel content to wallow i couldn't function without such a heavy load for long i miss it all the way it fit like a glove when nothing else even came close 030716 ... ferret the_perks_of_being_a_wallflower trysts prozac_nation 030716 what's it to you? who go blather from