le_sigh jane i want to bury myself in his shoulder, flattening my nose against his freckles, while i listen to him talk nonsense in his sleep 050924 ... jesibo0 nick, oui, je te frappe, le sigh. 061019 ... a different girl I remember when I felt the same. . . to be honest, I always blamed the freckles. . . though I'd forgotten the yelling and talking in his sleep. . . it's surreal to see/read about someone feeling so similarly to how I felt about him. . . but it makes me happy to see that he didn't push you away. . . or that you didn't let him, whichever the case may be. I'm glad that I didn't know about this site back when I lost him. . . I would have filled his name page up with trite bullshit. . .for pages and pages and pages. . . I like what you wrote as the opener better than anything I had written about him. It makes me a little sad that he still feels like he's a bad person. . .but it makes me smile to know that he lets you in. . .and that you know better than to let him spiral down . . . I'm only a *little* envious ;P You'll probably never see this. . . it was the only little corner I felt comfortable confessing that I, too, once fiercely loved egb . . but I was a different girl with a different life back then. . . 070731 ... jane {i'm glad that you found it.} {& for your sake, probably better that you are a different girl in a different place} {thank you} 070801 ... unhinged i gross myself out sometimes with how smooshy, gooey, and twitterpated i am over you. 090627 ... In_Bloom For when I cannot meet your glance then an audible exchange of sighs fills the breach of space between us 090627 ... wish i could blather_erase 100630 ... lg (at least sighing is better than crying) 110307 what's it to you? who go blather from