but_it_always_turns_out_this_way birdmad there was a looming shadow held up as a sudden barricade. song drowned out by distant echo and other songs but still being sung 030604 ... unhinged a lonely_soul alone_and_unsure aborting any chance at happiness eventually 030605 ... mathieu A true computer scientist never saves his data. he knows that, with Murphy's law, the very moment where he'll lose everything is when he'll save the files. You can try whatever you want, but_it_always_turns_out_this_way. Always. I tell you. 040412 ... lizzy why do i get so angry? so frustrated? its not like you do anythin to piss me off on purpose... quite the contrary in fact.. whats my deal? whats my problem? why can't i just chill out? i just want silence... and to answer to no one but me but... i've made my bed and now i will lie in it.... 040517 ... hope(ful)(less) i'm helpless to change and as such will not deign to try preassumed failure 041012 ... pete i turn on her cd and think back to our last, albet, scattered (temporally as we were both doing homeworking typing something every now and then) conversation. we really need to hang out more, but the school year ate away at that time.. and i dont want a repeat of last year, you are to likable 041012 ... f it always turns out that i a the madest person on earth but it makes me amazingly happy that i feel this way about someone, even if i mean nothing to them. 041013 what's it to you? who go blather from