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evi here we are again, pretending nothing happened. I must have lost something along the way, for once again we're at square one, only now I don't forget myself deep inside your eyes. can you even begin to comprehend the depth of the void you left behind? I feel nothing. nothing, but bits of pain caused by vague memories.
still I love you
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starjewel I broke down and cried over you today
I was tired of pretending that I was ok
I was sick of hoping that you'd call
I was done wondering if you cared at all

For days I've stayed angered and jaded
And will till the memories of you have faded
How do I forget those soft words you lied?
I can't shake all that was, believe me I've tried

I did nothing to you
I have nothing left to do
But to remember
It hurts me
Then deserts me
Then it all starts back again

I tried to keep it up and fake a smile
But my friends didn't trust me after a while
They hated from the beginning, I defended
Now you left me to tell them all how it ended.

Sort of wish now that I had something, a picture
The images of you are fading ever quicker
I guess now I should completely let go
Of you and return to all that I know

I did nothing to you
I have nothing left to do
But to remember
It hurts me
Then deserts me
Then it all starts back again
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Sakhalin is Magnifique I'm back! AND SO IS SAKHALIN! 060309
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Now I am blathing about it. Whoa, I just returned from a wild party... in my pants! 080112
what's it to you?
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