aroused_ponderings Mahayana I arouse spread out with ponderings. symbols and riveting flashes, consume self-possessedness, sanity/senses/reason in confusion. saccharine unique Diesel, weird/ unusual/ atypical… awesome consequences encompass my life-force concerned/ worried/ anxious?… afraid/ alarmed/ apprehensive?... soul aches with remembrance, for there can be no respite/ interval/ breathing space no relief/ lull/ reprieve for my adorations/ love /fondness devotion/ passion/ ardor; acquiescently reflective mind-sets, entices your lips- thy lexis, your soul- thy love, forsakes infernos? copiously brought 2 fruition honorably majestic essence… subsisting within. You are away for some time and shall be for in the region of one week; I shall catch sight of you in the nearest hours possible. Until then, a thousand prayers; but give me none in return, for they are birthed into existence for you. 020121 ... Mahayana I awaken overflowing with contemplations of you. Your representations and the enthralling evenings, which we spend collectively, have left my right mind in confusion. Sweet, incomparable Diesel, what a peculiar and breathtaking effect you have on my heart. Are you irritated? Do I perceive you looking miserable? Are you concerned?... My soul aches with mourning, and there can be no rest for you my love; but is there still more in store for me when, yielding to the profound feelings which overwhelm me, I draw from your lips- thy lexis, from your heart- thy love, which consumes me with fire? Ah, it was last night that I fully realized how false an image of you your portrait gives, for what honorably is of majestic essence… subsists within. You are away for some time and shall be for in the region of one week; I shall catch sight of you in the nearest hours possible. Until then, a thousand prayers; but give me none in return, for they are birthed into existence for you. winter solstice- the longest darkest night of the whole year 020121 ... birdmad my every thought when i'm not focused on my work and my ambitions 020122 ... sequence no: 128 beach holiday Bouvet Island. 110411 what's it to you? who go blather from