si
me si is the centre of my world, yet i hide it 001228
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elegance hurt and pain and red
and people to bring you down
and blades to bring you back up.
and you want to laugh
but it hurts
and you want to cry
but it hurts
so you dont do anything at all.
except cut
and puke
and cut
and shit
and cut
and starve
and cut
and exercise.
design design!
destroy destroy.

now i wear poppy bruises on my back
and legs
and thighs
and peachy-queen buttocks.
happy bruises from sex
memory bruises from climbing over fences
while out of my tree on yokes.
design design?
life is going my way.
040614
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elegance Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone, help.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybodyís help in any way.
But now these days are gone, Iím not so self assured,
Now I find Iíve changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, Iím feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Wonít you please, please help me.
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like Iíve never done before.
Help me if you can, Iím feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Wonít you please, please help me.
When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybodyís help in any way.
But now these daya are gone, Iím not so self assured,
Now I find Iíve changed my mind and opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, Iím feeling down
And I do appreciate you being round.
Help me, get my feet back on the ground,
Wonít you please, please help me, help me, help me, oh
040616
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