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farmfish i'm not the man i think i want to be, laughing at the way my sanity stretches like a rubberband pulled too far. i might break and sting your ring finger, so just put me down on the ground.

i'm sophomoric. i grieve but i believe better days are coming.
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unhinged yet you never seem to interpret it correctly. i'm laughing at myself. 011107
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Casey They are all off somewhere with out me, what else is new. I'll just sit here, I can't wait to get the hell out, away form them and the pain. 011107
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sabbie thinking beer does strange things and i sat outside
on a bright sunny day
grinning_with_crazy_bitterness
when down floated a beautiful grey feather.

i caught it in my hand and stared at it.


then a cat with half a pidgion hanging out its mouth
fell off the roof above me
landed on the grass
and streaked off around the shed.

and i looked at the feather, all perfect and angelic
and i thought about the dead bird
and the falling cat
and i laughed so hard i fell off the bench
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phil disruptive 020212
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qi wen with tar-blackened teeth, driving my mian di around the san_li_tun, looking for a lao_wai fare. beijing is different now, but not me. my beeper is blaring some strain of mozart (tom from arizona told me). the ku gua is just a way to transition from bitter tongue to bitter day.

a! ge mer, ni qu nar?
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